Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Against my plan...

I was planning on a hiatus from the scale for a couple week to give myself a "break" not only physically but also mentally but my curiosity got the best of me. I was expecting the worst and really was surprised. I gained 0.7 kilos or 1.5 lbs but with the way I've been feeling lately I was expecting a lot worse.

I'm not sure what my plan of action is right now. Of course, ideally, I would be eating great, full of energy, exercising regularly and looking forward to the week ahead of me. Realistically, I'm eating okay, zapped out of energy, exercise is a dirty 7 letter word and I'm just trying to get through each day.

I don't mean to be a debbie downer and I think it must sound so much worse when I'm typing it out than it actually is in real life. I just have no focus right now when it comes to weight loss which is actually the time when I need to be most aware of what I am doing with my health and body. It only takes a few slippery steps down the path of over eating and self medicating with food and before you know it weeks have gone by and you haven't made one conscious effort to get yourself back on track. I definitely don't want to go down that path (again). I also can't pick myself up and jog down the path of weight loss righteousness either. I guess I'm in a bit of limbo, just coasting by on autopilot.

I'll keep you all posted.

2 comments:

Kirsten said...

You'll figure out what's best for your body...trust it to take just what it needs and leave the rest behind..who needs the guilt!

Erin said...

You're not the only one! There was a time I'd step on the scale everyday to keep myself in check, although Wednesday is official weigh-in day. Now...eh. If I get on the scale on Wednesday, I did good, lol. Like you said, so much stuff going on. The key for me is to take baby steps. It's the little stuff. I may not have worked out, but I ran a bunch of errands and ate some healthy for lunch. The ambition will come back eventually...right now life has it's own plans;)