Sunday, April 12, 2009

Happy Easter!

Happy Easter everybody! Easter was never a huge holiday at our house, not like Thanksgiving or Christmas, so now that I'm away from "home" I tend to forget about this holiday altogether. I managed to get Sadie some colored eggs from the store but otherwise, it's same old same old around here. No basket, no special chocolates, no nothing. Plus, Marco's working all day today so we're not even together. We are, however, supposed to go see Jennifer and Quint (and maybe Danny) so that's fun!

I'm still unsure where I am with my weight loss. As I said in my last post, I didn't weigh myself Tuesday. I feel so overwhelmed with everything right now that I just want to jump off of the train of life at the next small town and just disappear into the background for a while. Of course with life you can't always do that, you have responsibilities, commitments, bills to pay... but that's just how I'm feeling right now, so caught up in everything. I'm not sleeping well again, my mind is constantly racing with thoughts but I hope within the next weeks or even a month I will have some peace with a few of the things that are going on that are causing me to want to rebel against myself. By that time I can share a bit more with you all and you'll understand more of what I'm talking about. Sorry to be so aloof.

I'm not letting this be an excuse to totally jump off the weight loss bandwagon, no worries there. I am just riding on the wagon letting the horses run on auto-pilot, which I guess wouldn't be auto-pilot but auto-coach-driver. Well that's what I always imagine when people are talking about the "wagon", an old John Wayne western wagon with a team of horses pulling it. So I'm just taking things day by day. Not looking ahead. Not pressuring myself. Just letting me "be".

I hope you all are having Happy Easters!

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