tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12473868.post5152993358312006409..comments2023-07-01T17:08:25.413+02:00Comments on Weighing in with my .02: Not weight loss or baby related...deep thoughts.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09168217921003908005noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12473868.post-65934268555322761522008-03-04T22:01:00.000+01:002008-03-04T22:01:00.000+01:00Wow. You just totally described what I feel. This ...Wow. You just totally described what I feel. This is really creepy, it's like I could have written this exact, same post - only exchange the "writer" for "photographer". <BR/>I too am stuck in a job that I don't like (even though I have just gotten promoted to be a manager which I never thought was for me but I actually feel really good in that position - only that I would want it to be in a much more creative field and a for a much more creative job).<BR/>I also daydream about changing my life and I also think "why the heck am I still here". The original plan was to leave NL 4 years ago to pursue my career as a Photographer in an English speaking country but then I met my future husband and all of my plans went out the window.<BR/>I have finally started to study Photography online recently. It's not the best course - I probably could have gotten into a real university studying Photography but like you I was afraid to fail. Even now that I am studying I am not giving it my all even though I am plenty motivated because deep down I am still not sure I am good enough. It's pretty complicated.<BR/>In a way it's like with the weight loss - whenever I am doing really well and I finally get to the hump I have been trying to get over for the last six month I start eating more and exercise less again. I have read on your blog you have a similar problem.<BR/>If you look at all of this - self-sabotage seems to be a personality trait in both of us.<BR/><BR/>By the way - my favorite excuse is "In Holland you can't get a creative job if you are not Dutch".<BR/> <BR/>The husband and I will be moving West at the end of this year because I am sick of my own excuses.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12473868.post-2345835458635838162008-03-04T20:04:00.000+01:002008-03-04T20:04:00.000+01:00Check out this book:http://www.amazon.com/Right-Wr...Check out this book:<BR/>http://www.amazon.com/Right-Write-Julia-Cameron/dp/0874779375/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1204657306&sr=8-1Monicahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11501575551066939483noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12473868.post-38446173667060940462008-03-03T19:20:00.000+01:002008-03-03T19:20:00.000+01:00Hi Sarah,I've been reading your blog for quite a w...Hi Sarah,<BR/><BR/>I've been reading your blog for quite a while now, and I think I've probably even sent you a comment or two over the past couple of years. But I knew I had to comment when I read your blog today, because I could have written so much of it myself.<BR/><BR/>I too, want to be a writer. I too, am doing a job that does not fulfill that desire in anyway. I'm a banker, of all things! It's a great job, with a lot of room for growth and career advancement, but I will admit, i don't find much fulfillment in it.<BR/><BR/>I have recently taken steps to start writing again (including registering a blog! And note, I said, registering, but I haven't actually loaded any content to it yet). But just like you, I have avoided writing for so long because I was afraid of failing.<BR/><BR/>This past year of my life has been quite tumultuous personally. Many people have told me how impressed they are with the courage I have shown during this year. And in my heart, I can't believe them, because I know what a coward I am professionally. I've always wanted to be in the arts, but never had the courage to follow my dreams.<BR/><BR/>Like I said, I'm taking some small steps. Small steps, but forwad steps nonetheless. <BR/><BR/>I hope you won't give up on your dreams. And I also hope you continue to blog about it. Your blog has been a true joy to read over the past couple of years. You're a great writer - don't give up!!<BR/><BR/>All the best,<BR/><BR/>AlmitraAnne Shirleyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15404974721097502905noreply@blogger.com