After a lifetime of being overweight, I've had it, I'm over it & I'm getting through it. This blog is about me, my weight, my food obsession & my plan to break free. There are a million people out there trying to lose weight and twice as many ways to go about it. This is my .02 and my experiences in the weight loss world.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Update from below...
Well what in the world? So I called my midwife to see what I was supposed to do, lay there and let myself contract or get up and walk around, slowing/stopping the contractions. Her suggestion was to not lay there as those are just pre-labor contractions and I'm unnecessarily wearing my body out. She said (and this I have never heard of) that once the sun goes down my daytime hormones (what?!) will lessen and my nighttime hormones will take over (m-kay). Then my contractions will more than likely become steady, closer together and be considered "real" contractions. She said that right now I should be relaxing but obviously that can't be done laying down so I should read a book, take a shower, get a massage (my favorite option) or do anything that will conserve my energy and relax me. She also said try to eat something small even if I don't feel like it. I had a fruit salad and a little snack cracker type thing.
I also asked her, "so am I going to have this baby tonight do you think?" and ding! ding! ding! ding! ding! She came up with the winning million dollar answer... "more than likely, yes, not many women take two days once they start out the way you did this morning." Did you see that "yes" in there? I sure did!
So... there you go. My July 21st baby will probably be an August 1st baby which is way way better than an August 8th baby!
Oh and by the way, the contractions are way different that I ever thought they would be. And that's not necessarily a good thing. I've already said to myself and Marco, yes, I can totally see why women get an epidural. LOL Oh wish me strength!
Houston we have liftoff... or do we?
About 10 minutes later I had my first contraction. A real one. Then I started having more contractions and they continued until about 8:30 this morning. ***disclaimer: this next sentence may induce vomiting*** In this time I also lost bits of my mucus plug while in the potty.
I called my midwife at 8 to tell her I thought my water had broken and to tell her what was going on. My contractions were about 10 minutes apart and lasting 40 second to 1 minute each. She said she just got a call from another woman with contrax 2 minutes apart so she couldn't come check me now but for me to let her know when they were 4 to 5 minutes apart for 2 hours solid. She also said what I thought was my water could have been just some really wet cervical mucus.
Then just as suddenly as they came, the contractions stopped. The whole wet cervical mucus thing could be true because I haven't had a "leak" since the first one at 3. Now it's 9:17 am and the contractions have really spread out, maybe one every 30 minutes to hour and aren't nearly as strong as they were. I just don't know what to think. I'm more than disappointed to say the least. I'm going to go take a shower to see if I can keep things moving along.
I'll update throughout the day if anything new happens. If nothing new happens then I'm going to try and sleep today since I obviously didn't get any sleep last night. It's already hot and humid as hell here. Should be a fun time.
Good thing the only person I called was my Mom because I wasn't quite sure if it was the real deal. Poor Mom probably isn't sleeping for shit and for no good reason. Sorry Ma! Love you!
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
My latest picture at 41 weeks 1 day (so from Tues)

Is it just me or is there a strong resemblance between me and one of Sadie's animals from her mural? You can also see my hair cut although it looks a little messy in the picture... well I'm not going to lie, it looks a little messy all the time.
Still hanging in there. No signs of labor. Not much else to report really. Thanks for all of your emails, comments, well wishes, cheers, prayers... the whole sche-bang! It really means a lot to us!
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Acupuncture
We started the treatment and she inserted 8-10 needles on each leg so 16-20 needles total. They were all in my lower legs (below the knee) with the exception of the ones that were in my hand in the web between my thumb and pointer finger. Inserting the needles didn't hurt but I could feel it when she hit the "spot". Again, it didn't hurt but it was a strange sensation. Kind of like a burning sensation only not hot. I know that probably doesn't make sense but I don't know how else to explain it.
After insertion I just sat there and every once in a while she would come over and twist/move the needles. I asked her how long after a treatment a woman would usually go into labor. She said it's usually that night or within 48 hours. WOOHOO! That sounded good to me.
Then she proceeded to say "but I don't think that is going to happen for you quite yet. Your response to the needles isn't quite what it should be if the baby was ready to come."
Talk about bursting a gals bubble. She set up another appointment for me for Friday to coincide with the midwife stripping my membranes. She seems to think that the two procedures may have a better chance of setting things in motion if done at the same time. She will also set up an appointment with me for the following Monday when the midwife will srip membranes again should Friday's stripping not work.
She also told me that I am not resting enough. I'm too active and I need to rest more. I already feel like a lazy slug for sitting around as much as I do. She did make a good point though. She said, you're not just sitting around, you're housing, feeding and growing a child 24-hours a day. That's a big task. I guess she's right. She was astounded that I actually vacuumed the entire house yesterday evening. Apparently I shouldn't be doing things like that, shopping, etc. She said walking with the dog in the neighborood is really good but all of the other "extra" stuff should be cut out.
I'm really disappointed. Yeah, she could be wrong about the whole labor but more than likely she's not. Yeah this baby will come when she's ready. I don't need anybody to tell me that. I'm just extremely disappointed right now.
Monday, July 28, 2008
41 weeks and no sign of Sadie
So here is the plan. Tomorrow I will have acupuncture at 10:30 in the morning. Should the baby be ready (all signs point to "yes" she is ready) this should work. I have a good feeling about it although maybe that's just hope.
If she isn't here by Friday the midwife will come to the house and strip my membranes. This, also, should work to get my uterus contracting.
If Friday's stripping doesn't work I have an appointment with the widwife on Monday where she will try, once again, to strip my membranes to get things started.
Should NONE of those options or nature take it's course by Thursday next week I will go to the hospital and see a doctor who will check the baby, the amniotic fluid level, me and then schedule me for an induction probably for Friday, August 8th.
I am hoping to God that it doesn't get that far. Having an induction means I will not be able to have the water birth in the birthing center as I have been planning all along. It means a delivery in a hospital bed, hooked up to and IV and probably given Pitocin (they use Oxytocin here).
I will do whatever is necessary to get Sadie here safely. If she is in danger obviously I have no problems doing whatever is necessary to get here in one healthy little bundle. I am going to try like hell everything I know how to get her here as naturally as possible though, before next Thursday.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Sunday July 27th = no baby
"Sadie, this is Papa. If you come out we'll give you ice cream. We also have very cute clothes to put on you. We'll let you swing in your swing all day long if you want. We're having really nice weather too so it's a great day to be born. We'll take you swimming and let you go down the slide as many times as you want."
Ah so sweet of Marco but it's just not working. And I do have to brag about what a wonderful husband he is. The man actually painted my toenails for me yesterday after first taking off the old chipped polish. They were looking pretty grim and it was really bothering me so he was kind enough to paint them and I didn't even have to resort to tears. What a guy! His technique was different, painting side to side rather from bottom of nail to the top but I have to say I have some cute pink little puffy toes today.
So as of 3:31 p.m. Sunday there is no sign of the wee one. If this July baby turns into an August baby... well I'll have to live with it... but I won't be a happy camper!
Sunday July 27th = no baby
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Guess what I've been doing yesterday and today
You Get Diarrhea
During the early part of labor, your body begins to release prostaglandins, a group of hormonelike substances that cause the uterus to contract and help soften and dilate the cervix. But prostaglandins can also hyperstimulate the bowels, causing frequent stools or even diarrhea, Dr. Grabowski says.
Yeah, so this better be the early signs of an impending labor. Otherwise it's just a cruel evil joke to play on the already-sitting-on-pins-and-needles mommy to be. So can I get a big ole "hell yeah" for the prostaglandins?
HELL YEAH!
Friday, July 25, 2008
*big sigh*
So for now I'm just sitting patiently waiting for the little one... oh and my cheesecake from Becklette.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Exciting!!!!
Then I woke up at 5:30 this morning from more contractions. Had 3 or 4 of them fairly close together, probably within a 20 minute time span for all of them. I was so excited. Then nothing. They stopped.
So at least my body is doing something. Not everything but something. It's a start. Usually I'm a pretty quick learner so fingers crossed my uterus catches on fast!
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
40 weeks 1 day new pictures!
11:30 am and all is well
I am still holding out a glimmer of hope that she will arrive before the acupuncture is needed. Until then it's just a waiting game. Thanks for all of your well wishes, good thoughts, labor vibes, prayers and comments. It's nice to know people are thinking of us!
Monday, July 21, 2008
A note from Mommy...
Hello sweetheart! This is your Mommy, Sarah. Today is your due date my little pumpkin. That means that this is the day that you're supposed to arrive so me and Papa can finally meet you. We've been so excited for this day to actually get here!
I just got back from my appointment with the midwife (the lady who will help me bring you into the world, she'll be one of the first people you get to meet) and she doesn't seem to think you'll be coming out to play today. That's probably a good thing because it's very rainy right now. Maybe you're waiting for good weather?
Papa's been talking to you a lot lately in my belly. Have you been listening? He's been asking if you're ready to come out and play. I know you can hear him because when he asks you questions you kick me. When you kick me, I kick Papa, just so he can share in the experience. He doesn't like that very much but it makes me laugh. Maybe you're laughing too when you kick me?
We've got everything all ready for you. We've packed two different outfits to take to the birthing center with us in two different sizes just in case you're bigger than we expect. When we got to see you're pretty little face on the 3d ultrasound ten weeks ago the doctor said you were very long for a 30 week old baby so I'm sure by now at 40 weeks along you're even longer and stronger! Don't worry though we have plenty of clothes for you in all different sizes so you just come on out here whatever size you want to be, okay?
We've got your cradle all ready for you too. We've washed the sheets so they're nice and soft for you and it's just waiting there for you at the end of our bed. Every once in a while Papa will rock it and sing a little song just to make sure he's in good practice for when you really are here. We even have a special little doggy for you that plays sounds of the womb to help you sleep. Papa thinks this will be your favorite stuffed animal and that you'll carry it with you everywhere. I think he may be right.
I know you hear your four legged brother Scooter barking sometimes. He's excited to meet you as well. Every morning he goes into your room to eat his breakfast. I think he's just checking to make sure you didn't come through the night without him knowing. He may look a little funny and will probably steal your food when you get a bit older but I think you guys will be best buddies.
Have you been listening to the songs we've been making up for you and singing every day? The 'shoe shine shop' song is a song my Grandpa used to sing to me when I was little. It's a tongue twister! Your cousins, Jordi and Milan, have learned it too and they will sing it to you as well just as soon as you arrive. My favorite song though is the Sadie Sadie song... you know the one... it goes:
Sadie Sadie, such a little lady
Sitting on the porch and drinkin lemonade-y
Who's that girl with the curls in her hair?
Oh that's my Sadie I'd know her anywhere.
Who's that girl with the twinkle in her eye?
Oh that's my Sadie she's my little pumpkin pie.
Sadie, Sadie, such a little lady
sitting on the porch and drinkin lemonade-y.
Papa and I sing that song to you every day. Once we start it gets stuck in our head. I even sang it in my dream last night. I hope you come out soon so we can sing it together while I rock you in my arms. I think you'll like it a lot out here.
Anything you could possibly need we're ready to give to you. We have stored up lots of hugs, kisses, cuddles, laughs, tickles, sways, rocking, bouncing, love... anything you want... we're ready to give to you. We're ready to read you stories. We're ready to change your dirty diapers. (Papa gets super pooper duty!). We're ready to make you feel safe. We're ready to let you feel loved. We're ready to kiss your scrapes and bumps. We're ready to teach you new things. We're ready to watch you learn and grow. We're ready for you sweetie. Just come whenever you can. We're ready to be your Mommy and Papa. We love you Sadie.
Love,
Mommy.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
2 o'clock and all is well
Hope you all are having a wonderful weekend! Tomorrow is THE due date. We shall see if little Miss Sadie Pants is punctual.
Friday, July 18, 2008
Flipping the bird
Now I'm onto the theory that she will come on her due date, Monday July 21st. So it looks like I'm giving myself the weekend off of thinking "is that a sign of labor" or "could this be it?" because you know what, it's not labor and no Sarah, this isn't it.
Did you drop something?
I was in a lot of pain (more uncomfortableness than pain) yesterday. I had those terrible intestinal pains again on top of her dropping and causing pelvic uncomfiness with every step. The bottom of my belly is extremely sore and tender and I could have sworn that yesterday was going to be "it". Oh how very wrong I was, once again.
I'm no longer leaving the house alone to go long distances because when the pain strikes I really can barely move on my own. We were in the forrest with the dog yesterday when they struck and our normal 10 minute walk back to the car took me at least 25 minutes. Macro was with me luckily but I just don't dare to go running around (HA! more like weeble-ing around) on my own.
Today is the full moon. I hope it does it's magic and brings this baby out into the world to meet us!
Thursday, July 17, 2008
It's 12:30 here and all is well
So, so far no Sadie today but you have been updated on the happenings in my genital region. Now you can rest well, no?
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
No progress... nothing new to report
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Still here, still pregnant.
My sleep schedule is all out of whack. Usually I'm in bed at 9:30 - 10 oçlock. This is pre-pregnancy. I just am not a night owl. That said, I am a morning person and generally up at the butt crack of dawn ready to start the day. Well here lately around 11 (so already well past my bedtime) I get this spurt of energy. I can't sit still, I can lounge around and relax... I have to get moving. So my sweet sweet darling husband, even with his long hours at work, has been so kind to go on late night strolls with me. We wander around the neighborhood with the dog and it feels so good. It's the best time of "day" for me. I feel energized, my feet don't ache, it's cool outside... it's just a relaxing time. By time the walk is finished I'm usually yawning and ready to try to get some rest. Sometimes I'm able to, sometimes I still toss for a while but for the most part these evening strolls are pretty darned helpful.
Of course when you're not going to bed until 2 in the morning you don't feel quite as perky at...say..7ish. In fact I'm ashamed to admit that I haven't been out of bed before 10 a.m. for the past 4 or 5 days! Some days it's even been (gasp) 11:30! I haven't slept this long since my club-alcohol-dancing until your blistered days and those have been long gone for years now. I would love to feel guilty but I just don't. I feel fantastic actually. Maybe this is what my restless legs have been trying to get me to do for weeks now but being stubborn I just wouldn't give in.
And then, to make things worse (or better depending on if you're a glass half full person) some days I take a nap in the afternoon! Yes, I wake up to welcome the afternoon and by 3 am back in bed sleeping! It's insane. I've never slept so much in my life!
I am wondering how this will effect me once the baby arrives. Is she also going to be a night owl? Is that what my body is telling me? Yes, she is kung fu fighting between 11 and 1 a.m. every evening so maybe this is a given but is this sleep pattern my destiny? It's fine for now while I'm on maternity leave but once I am back to work I don't think my boss or colleagues will appreciate me strolling in around noon-ish no matter how good I feel. Maybe it's my body's way of preparing me for labor? Maybe I'll be pushing Sadie out around 11-1 which explains my sudden spurt of energy.
Who knows... maybe it's just a fluke. Whatever it is, I'm doing what works for me now no matter how bizarre I find the pattern. It's all just a learning curve at this point.
Only 8 more days until my official due date. I'll be 39 weeks tomorrow and will try to post another recent picture. I like to imagine all of your eyes popping out of their sockets as you witness my ever expanding belly. Feel free to leave a comment and post your bets on when little Sadie Marie will be arriving! Winner gets... well you get the satisfaction of knowing you guessed right... LOL Well, unless I can come up with something a little more interesting. I will be busy with a new born and all though, I'm sure you understand. Thanks for all of your wellwishes and thoughts! If you could only send some labor vibes now, that would be wonderful!
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
I'm still here...and still pregnant.
Saturday, July 05, 2008
16 - that's a nice number
16 Candles, great Molly Ringwald movie.
16 tons, what do you get, another day older and deeper in debt. (a song my Dad used to sing)
16 is a size I still have to get to. I was almost there pre-pregnancy (18).
16 ounces are in each pound you lose.
And last but not least....
16 days until my due date!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hope you all had a happy 4th of July!
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
Happy JULY!
Marco's become a pro at putting on the bjorn (baby carrier) and is taking his fatherly role very seriously.
I just can't believe that it's here! July! Yay! I've never been so excited for a month before.
Finally, after 3 years and 4 months from when we first started trying for a baby this journey is finally coming to and end and our new one is beginning! I am one of the luckiest women in the world!