Tuesday, November 30, 2010

I am back!

In more ways than one! I am back from my long, wonderful, funtastic vacation in the USA and I am back on the weight loss wagon. The scale was not nice to me this morning. No feelings were held back when it shouted out ugly, heavy numbers at me but I must say that I am not surprised at all. I could feel it in my clothes. I oculd feel it in my body. I could feel it in my knees. I knew I had gained weight. It just was bound to happen whilst in the land of super size, free refills and cheesecake. I love my cheesecake and it loves camping out on my thighs. So, I've gone to the US, I've weighed in afterwards and now we begin... again....

I had my first appointment with my new councilor this morning. She was fantastic and we've got a plan of action. I'm back to logging my food, eating every 2.5 - 3 hours to keep my blood sugars up and level and I'm feeling focused. Marco (my husband) and I talked a lot about a plan of action for when I returned home and we sorted some things out. We realize mistakes I have made, where things go wrongly wrong and how I easily get distracted and derailed. He's, once again, totally on board with whatever it is I want and need to get going again.

I also talked to the new councilor about weight loss surgery. She knows it's on my mind but I told her right now I just want to focus on getting my head on straight and then we'll see where we go from there. It's still a viable step in the process of permanent weight loss but I just am not ready for such a drastic step right now (as in these next two months) but it's still on the table. We've also discussed me going to OA meetings on my own, since I won't be joining in the group therapy they offer since it's in Dutch. I'm still on the fence about that but hey, I should at least try it, right?

I've also decided that I need to take the guess work out of my meals for lunch at work so I am going to start brown bagging it. Then I know what I'll be eating and won't be tempted to jump the salad bar line for the more savory hot lunch option, which generally consists of a lot more calories that I ever intend to eat for lunch. By skipping the cafeteria lines altogether I won't have to say "no" to the carrot cake, or taco bar, or whatever else they have that derails me. This is actually a really important step that Dr. Phil talks about in his book too, making your environment around you one that you can be successful in. I can't very well shut down the canteen at work, but I can avoid standing in its lines.

SO there is a brief howdy for now. I'll try to catch you all up on everything again in the next couple of days.

I hope you've all had healthy, successful weeks!

Friday, November 05, 2010

Vacation time!

I wanted to check in to say I'm checking out... for about 3 weeks! I'm going "home" to the US for a nice, long, much needed break so more than likely I won't be updating my blog in that time.

I've made my further counseling appointment and have still been looking into the lap-band. No decisions have been made and probably won't be made until after my vacation is over. I’ve discussed it with my husband and he is on board with whatever I choose to do but of course we would talk about it more extensively if I decide to go that direction.

I just had my uncle here for a visit and I can actually say that even though I was in “vacation” mode, I didn’t go overboard. That’s pretty easy to do here though, when I’m in the US (Thanksgiving) it can be a whole other ballgame. I don’t want to be super restrictive or obsessive while I’m there with some home cooking but I also don’t want to come back weight 10 pounds more than I did when I left (which is actually doable in 3 weeks time, trust me). I’m just going to try to be conscious, splurge on the things I really do miss and cannot get here and sacrifice at the times when it really won’t matter, like having a much lighter breakfast rather than the full meal deal.

So, I’m signing out for a short while but will be back on the 30th with an update from Dewy and what the plan is.

I wish you all happy, healthy, successful weeks for the upcoming rest of the month!