Tuesday, October 30, 2007
As I said last week I was retaining some water due to it being that TOM so I'm fairly certain 2 - 3 pounds of this weeks loss was water related but the fact of the matter is that I am now at 229.24 pounds (104.2 kilos) even after the weeks befores Elation Eating problem. WOOHOO!
I am now 29 pounds away from my biggest hugest goal! I am a mere 29 pounds away from what started this whole thing. I am 29 pounds from being the healthiest I have ever been in my life! 29 small tiny insignificant pounds are all that is standing in my way to finally have won this weight loss battle for the first and last time in my life! If I can keep the excitement that I am feeling right at this very moment up for the next few months by golly I think I could really pull this off. WOW! What a great way to start my day.
I hope you all have a wonderful and healthy week!
p.s. I'll have to update my stats later today as I'm runnng out the door for work now.
Monday, October 29, 2007
If you've been with me from the get-go you probably won't learn anything new that you didn't already know about me. I think most of the tips I have already shared here but for those of you who maybe new to my blog it gives the scoop on where I have been, what I've done and what I hope to do.
Sunday, October 28, 2007
It'll be interesting to see what happens on the scale Tuesday.
He's well known for his passion for weight loss, his Deal a Meal cards, his Sweating to the Oldies videos, his little bitty afro and too-short-shorts, amongst other accomplishments and fashion faux pas. Back when I was 18 or 19 he was this big girls weight loss hope when nobody else seemed to understand. He always had an encouraging message. He knew I could do it. He had faith in me. He made me feel like I could really be a weight loss success story.
I sweated to the oldies in my old apartment that I shared with my friend Pam. I loved that even though I was so over weight and so out of shape that I could keep up with his tapes. I loved that other unthin people were on his videos. I loved the part at the end where they all told how much weight they had lost. I loved it all.
Of course I wasn't dealing with my emotional eating issues at the time I was dealing myself a meal and sweating to the oldies so I was never one of Richards prodigies. I did lose some weight just from the exercise but once I got tired of "Build me up buttercup" playing over and over in my living room the tapes took their final resting place in the cupboard to gather dust.
Today I was browsing my cd collection looking for some music to do my "naked free dance" to (I'm still too sore to jump rope) and ran across a cd named "Richard Simmons 101". It was a cd my friend Louis burned for when we were about 23 or 24 years old. I hadn't listened to the cd in years but I remember when he made it for me. Once again I was trying to lose weight. We were frequenting many-a-dance-club in those days and this CD was filled with songs from that time in our lives.
I popped it in, set the timer for 45 minutes and began free dancing all over my living room. The more I danced the happier I became. The songs that I was shaking and shimmying too had positive lyrics and were upbeat and my attitude followed right along. Listening to those songs took me back to the fun times I used to have with my friends in those clubs.
I like to incorporate some moves from the old videos into my "free dance" workouts to make sure I'm working out my muscles and not just my heart. As I remembered step-ball-changing and cha-chaing with Richard I started thinking about how much fun I was having.
As I shoulder-shook and shimmied through Unspeakable Joy (great positive song, you should download it) I started thinking about all the blogs I read and how so many people out there are so self conscious about their weight to the point that it hinders their ability to exercise. It's such a shame. Here I am, 230 pounds of woman, half naked (sports bra and boy shorts only) in my living room dancing around like a total yahoo, thrilled to death, having a blast and there are some people who would love to lose weight but are too ashamed to take those first few steps to do it, even if it is with the shades closed in their living room and nobody else can see them.
So of course that led me to think, why in the world aren't there more video's like that out there? I don't want to sweat to the oldies. I'm only 31 for pete's sake. But why isn't there something out there for people who are out of shape, who love to dance or just want to start moving? Why aren't their big people videos out there for us big people MADE by big people? Why isn't there a fun, up to date dvd with fun up to date music for fun people who just don't know where to start? I'm not talking about an hour long totally choreographed dvd that you should take dance lessons for but why isn't there a "Naked Free Dance" video out there for people who are really just beginning? I started as 301 pound women and even those beginners dvds with modified moves were sometimes too much not to mention I don't want to look at thin women in their leotards while I'm sweating like mad in my over sized workout clothes.
Mr. Simmons had (has) some really good ideas and I think he really did (does) touch a lot of people's lives but I think we need somebody fresh, young and new that connects with today's younger generation. Any volunteers? Anybody? Any one? Bueller? So I guess what I'm asking is where is OUR generation's Richard Simmons hiding? Can't somebody make us "sweat to the current tunes"? Am I going to have to make a video of myself free dancing and post it on here to only end up on youtube as the joke of the week before somebody will stand up and take action (please don't make me do that, it would be u-g-l-y).
Surely there is a need/want for this in the diet industry? Where is our knight in shining short-shorts who will take us by the hand, let us know that we're ok, we're worth it, we can do it and that he/she is there for us? Will the new Richard Simmons please stand up?
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Een, twee, drie
Let's burn a calorie
I'm hoppin like a bunny
And I'm sure I'm looking funny
Come and jump along with me
We know that exercise is key
skiping rope is so fun
when you don't like to run
I like jumpin rope
and there's no time to mope
We'll get our hearts a pumpin
with our ropes we're a jumpin
and now our song will end
and we'll do it all again!
I have no shame. Just.no.shame. :o)
I put on make-up yesterday which took up the time I usually spend eating breakfast. Sometimes you have to sacrifice to be beautiful I guess and since I wear make-up about 4 times a year I guess it's alright this time. I knew I could just grab something on my way to drop Marco off for work. So I had a pistolet (a football shaped roll) with cheese from the shop right across from his work. (Bread #1)
snack: It was somebodies birthday at work so we had pie. I don't skip these occasions to eat pie. They don't happen often and a slice of pie every once in a while isn't going to kill me. My life will not be without pie, cakes, cookies, chocolates and the sorts on OCCASIONS so I don't torture myself and not participate. If I would never participate in the birthday celebrations I really feel like it would lead to me binging later. I don't want to go back down that path any time soon. No depriving for me.
Lunch was typical Dutch lunch in the canteen (and please let me know, do you say canteen in the US? I don't think so but my English and Aussie colleagues always call it the canteen so now I can't remember if we do too. I think we just use cafeteria.) so a buffet of breads and spreads. I did manage to skip any bread here and just had my cuke/tomato/red bell pepper/feta/pesto salad. (bread #2)
snack: one orange
Dinner was to be at Marco's parents house. We go there about once a week for supper. Usually it's a typical Dutch hot meal consisting of veg, boiled potatoes (no salt, no pepper, no butter...no shit) and meat (usually beef in my family's house) but last night was an exception. They were watching our nephews, Jordi and Milan, so they didn't want to cook a real meal so what was the alternative? BREAD of course! (bread #3). I was starving by time we got there and over ate by quite a bit. I had an open faced egg and bacon sandwich (fried ACK!), a small beef steak (fried ACK!), and a peanut butter and jelly sandwich (fattening ACK!). I followed it up with a cup of vanilla and chocolate pudding mixed. ACK! ACK! ACK!
So in the course of one day I could have eaten bread at all three meals! And before I started making a conscious effort to eat less bread I probably would have eaten bread at all three meals on more than one occasion. Granted my food intake yesterday sucked big time but it could have been worse had I not had the salad option for lunch. So yesterday wasn't a gold star winning day for me. It was a "put your name on the chalkboard and if I have to do that twice in a week then I get detention" day. Lousy lousy lousy.
But today is another day. I just keep going and keep yesterday's choices in the back of my head when I make today's selections. I started with a lovely breakfast of f/f yogurt with a sliced up banana and coffee. Good start...now I just need to keep the momentum going.
In other news... if I thought my abs hurt yesterday then I was in for a rude freaking awakening last night and today. OH MY GOD BECKY! Every time I would roll over in bed it would wake me up from the soreness. Crazy to think all this muscle soreness was caused by a simple 25 minute jump rope routine. I have a little tenderness in my calves but otherwise it's just my tummy that's kicking my arse. I'm going to try and jump again today and see how it goes.
Have a great healthy weekend all!
Friday, October 26, 2007
Last night's skipping wasn't quite the merriment I used to remember it being. Oh it was fun at first but 10 minutes into it I wasn't singing "Fudge Fudge call the judge" but I was crying out "Marco Marco GIVE ME OXYGEN". Oxygen doesn't really rhyme with much.
I had set the time on the stove for 30 minutes because that seemed like a good starting point since it was my first time trying it since my school yard days. I had googled 'jump rope for exercise' before I began and most sites recommended skipping for 20 counts and resting for 20-30 building up your stamina slowly.
Twenty counts seemed a bit simple so I decided I'd skip for 50 and rest for 30. That was an enthusiastic goal I learned quickly. I jumped in my living room on the carpet to try to help with the impact but it did bother my knees a smidgen. My legs were burning nicely fifteen minutes into it and my arms were getting a bit fatigued. Surprisingly enough I was actually sweating. I continued on my 50 jumps but began needing to rest for 30-40 counts in between sets. I found that by counting up to 25 and then backwards down to 0 it helped to make it seem like time was going quicker. Sometimes you just have to play head games with yourself to make it through.
I ended up having to stop at 25 minutes because I was getting a bit dizzy. I'm all for pushing yourself but you also have to know when enough is just enough. I really felt the workout all over my body though. My legs and feet were tired (I jumped in socks to try and strengthen my foot muscles). My forearms were a bit tired for all the rope twirling but what really surprised me most was how bad my abs hurts afterwards. I could feel the burn within minutes of stopping the workout and I still feel the soreness in them today. Apparently jumping rope is a really good full body workout.
All in all I was really pleased with the workout. It took no time and I feel the results. Not to mention I can feel good that I actually did some movement this week. It's something that I can do and bring with me anywhere and I can do it in the house too. I'm really glad I decided to try it out. Now I just need some clever little rhymes to make the time pass quickly... "Sarah and Marco sitting in a tree..."
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Lunch: one dönor kebab (shaved lambs meat sandwich with lettuce, tomato, cukes, sambal and garlic sauce on a fresh roll) and a spinach/feta pastry pie thingy.
snack: another forest berry fruit bar (I usually have a piece of fruit for snack at this point in the day but due to unusual circumstances I wasn't able to get any)
supper: Chinese beef stir fry. We ate it minus any noodles or rice and it was really good. I didn't miss the extra carbs at all and I'm equally as satisfied afterwards as I am when I eat the noodles with it. Interesting don't ya think?
Drinks: 2 cups of coffee with splenda, 2-8oz. cans of diet coke and 7-8 glasses of water.
Overall I think it's a pretty good day for me. I usually eat more veg with lunch but had to eat out (again due to unusual circumstances) so they weren't available to me.
We've been opening our minds and mouths to a bit more Asian influences lately, trying some new dishes and they've all been pretty tasty. They're packed full of veg which is great and usually we have chicken with it so it's fairly healthy. We get them in prepackaged amounts so there is only two portions which helps me with portion control.
I also felt less bloated and puffy yesterday and this morning when I woke up so I thought I’d step on the scale to check if I’d dropped any poundage from water weight and sure enough I was back down to 104.8 kilos (230 lbs)! That’s 0.2 kilos less that my weigh-in 2 Tuesday’s ago but not quite back to where I was prior (by only 0.2 kilos though!). I have great hopes for this week! Amazing what water retention can do to a woman’s body. What’s horrible is that I always feel like it’s such a lame excuse for not losing one week. I make myself feel guilty for it but in reality there is very little I can do about it.
I’ll post again this evening to let you know how my eating went today!
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
What a disappointment. I've been doing so well recently that it was actually painful to see those numbers on the scale this week. Not shocking because I cheat weighed-in on Saturday but I was still really bummed. I know the damage is 100% totally recoverable and reversible but geesh I'm just so disappointed in myself. I don't have anybody to blame but big ole me though.
So this week I am going to try to do the following:
1) Cut down my dinner carbs. We're a meat/potato/veg-supper eating family. This week I'm going to try to lay off the carb at supper and load up on the veg. I'm already eating less carbs then I used to, way back when, but desperate times call for desperate measures.
2) Cut out my morning choco-coffee altogether. My great wonderful super duper sweet colleague Richard just got back from the US and brought me some Splenda so I'll bring some to work with me and have regular, non-chocolate, coffee with some splenda in it. Probably between 40 and 80 calories saved there.
3) Cut out the extra bread at lunchtime. I try to eat a veggie salad at lunch with just a slice of bread but I almost always end up eating more than one slice and sometimes up to 3 or 4. I also have been in the habit of taking a half piece of bread and slathering it in honey for "something sweet" after lunch. I'm cutting that out.
4) I'm going to try to repeat "every calorie does count" to myself more often. It worked so well for me before and I just got out of the habit of it once things were going decent. Isn't that silly? You find something that obviously works for you and as soon as you get into a "groove" you stop doing it because you think "hey I'm doing really well"! DUH!
5) I will exercise at least 3 times this week. That's a huge improvement on my non-existent exercise regime I've been keeping lately. I'm still hoping for that DDR for Christmas Santa!
Those 5 changes ought to put me in the negative numbers again next week. I'll keep you posted as the week goes on to how I'm doing with my new mini-goals.
I hope you all have a healthy week!
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Friday, October 19, 2007
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Friday, October 12, 2007
Hope you all are having a healthy week!
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
I am down another 1.32 pounds this morning and I have reached a 70 pound mark!!!! 70.40 pounds to be exact (32 kilos). I cannot freaking believe that I have successfully lost 70 pounds!!!! I am more than elated. I am beyond thrilled. I am sincerely overjoyed. I am amazed. I am blissful. I am every-other-synonym-for-the-phrase-"wooohoooooo"-dotted-with-quadruple-exclamation-points that is out there and known to man. I used to be a 301 pound woman an now I am a mere 30 pounds away from weighing 200 pounds! WOOHOO!!!!
And THAT was just the start of my day. I got to work and checked my e mail to discover that Experience Life magazine will be quoting lil-ole-me in their January 2008 issue! The piece will be called "Focus on Fitness" about the fitness-weight loss connection. I spoke with a freelance writer, Gina DeMillo Wagner, for this article a while back and finally they've contacted me for some fact checking and such to get the final story done. It's just a little snippet from me but NEVER in a million years did I think I would ever be quoted in a magazine but even more so NEVER in a FITNESS MAGAZINE!!!! It's like I'm living in an alternate universe starring a healthier hotter me!
WOW! What a wonderful Tuesday! We're getting the Internet hooked up today (supposedly) so I'll be able to blog more frequently but really, after a day like today, what more is there to blog about?
I hope you all have a wonderful healthy week. Oh and one more thing.
Thursday, October 04, 2007
Throw out all your unhealthy snacks. If it's not there you can't eat it. Most important in this step is don't forget to replace them with healthy alternatives. I went all out throwing out every scrap of junk food when I began but then absent mindedly I didn’t replace it with anything. It led me to dig into my husbands snack drawer which wasn’t exactly healthy. You’re going to get hungry. It’s a part of life. Be prepared for when it happens.
Get rid of food triggers that make you want to eat, such as cookie scented candles, brown sugar or apple pie scented candles, magazines full of pictures of fattening desserts that sit near the couch that you can’t help but see, and the likes.
Learn what a portion is and measure them until you are good enough to eyeball it eventually. I still measure every once in a while to keep myself in check.
Set a very specific goal. Say "I want to lose X pounds in X amount of time. Then break it down. This means I need to lose X pounds per month and X pounds per week." Make sure your goal is healthy and attainable. In other words don’t set yourself up for failure by saying “I want to lose 10 pounds every month for 5 months” because it’s just not healthy and would be extremely hard to achieve. Allow some flexibility with your goals. Say I want to lose between 4 and 8 pounds every month so if you have a bad week and gain you can still make up for it and meet your monthly goal.
Don’t make all your goals weight loss related. Sometimes pounds just don’t come off for a week. If you still followed your plan all week long (exercised 3 times, eat healthy every meal, didn’t binge, whatever your goals are) and didn’t manage to lose then you should still celebrate that you did something good for yourself even if the scale doesn’t say so. It keeps the fact that weight loss isn’t the only reason to do this in perspective, health is more important.
Set up an award system for yourself and celebrate even the small victories. Don’t discount the fact that you NEVER used to take the stairs but today you did it twice, only riding in the elevator once. That’s a big improvement! No, it’s not perfect but it’s still better than you were doing for yourself in the past.
Find something that works for YOU and that YOU can live with and stick with it. There are a million people losing weight and twice as many ways to go about it. One way may be great for one person but may just not work for you. You have to find what you are comfy with and do that.
Don't get caught up in too many trends and get yourself overwhelmed. If you're going to count calories then do that and don't worry about what people on Atkins are doing. If you're going to do Weight Watchers then count your points and don’t get caught up in what South Beachers are telling you. There is SO much information out there to wade through, take small steps and try to have blinders on for a while, until you get into your groove THEN add something else in if you want (such as do WW but also try to eat clean). It's so easy to be standing in an aisle at the store trying to pick out a food and think "it is low calories but has some carbs but it has protein but it's got some sugar" it's just information overload and you’ll end up frustrated and with an empty cart.
Little things do make a difference. If you can't make a complete overhaul at first then take baby steps. If you currently drink soda all day long and can only handle slowly adding some water in your diet then do it that way. Drink one glass in the morning for one week and be proud that you did it. Then up your goals. Gradual works well and helps keep that overwhelming feeling at bay.
Push yourself and be honest with yourself. If you're strolling through the park and in your head you tell yourself "I went for a brisk walk today" then you're only fooling yourself. Push yourself because nobody else is going to push you.
Don't discount the benefits of strength training. You don't have to lift 100 pound weights a million times to benefit from weight training. Even a few exercises using your own body as weight is a great start. The more muscle you have (and women it’s very hard for our bodies to “bulk up” so don’t use that as an excuse) the more calories you will burn in a resting position. I’d much rather burn 100 calories while napping because I have more muscle than burning 25 calories while napping because I don’t strength train. It’s a fair trade off. Even if you can’t see it yet because of the fat, rest assured it’s there and it’s working for you. You don’t have to have a gym membership either. No excuses!
Exercise is like diet... you're going to have a million people telling you that their way is the right way and the only way... find a way that WORKS for you and stick to it.
Don't obsess over the numbers as they are just a small part of weight loss. You're doing something beautiful for your body no matter what the scale tells you week to week.
Be patient, weight loss is a marathon not a sprint.
Honestly, it doesn't take me any more time to prepare a healthy meal than it does to bake a frozen dinner or cook a less healthy meal. You do have to consciously make an effort to do this though, that's something you have to do on your own, nobody can do it for you. It takes no time to slice up some fresh veggies and lightly sauté them or throw them on the grill with some fish or chicken. Or even faster, eat them raw! Most of my meals are prepared and done within 20 minutes to 1/2 hour and are healthy so I can't use the excuse "it's so much faster to eat unhealthy" because really, it's not.
Make a grocery list/meal plan for the next 3 or 4 days and make one shopping trip for the ingredients. Stick to your plan, no excuses. This small amount of time you spend to plan some healthy meals will save you time in the end as you won't have to think "what should I make for dinner tonight". You'll already know.
After your meal brush your teeth. Nobody likes to eat when you have a clean healthy fresh mouth so it will help stave off the late night snacking.
Start a blog, get a readership. My blog has kept me totally accountable for my actions. It's also been a great outlet and support system.
Remember that nothing is done or undone in one snack, one meal, one day, one week or even one month. If you have a bad food day you didn't ruin anything. You just have to pick yourself up and start again right that very moment. Don’t put it off until Monday. It's all very "lather, rinse, repeat'."
I read Dr. Phil's book the Ultimate Weight Solutions and have had great success with it. It’s a wonderful book for emotional eaters. I have/had 100 pounds to lose and am about 60+ pounds down so far. I highly recommend the book!
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
I know nothing about this game but am extremely interested in learning more. If any of you have any fun DDR stories please post them here.
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
We’re all moved in and almost all settled. We have about 10 or so small boxes to unpack still but we’ve been sleeping there all week and it feels GREAT! It actually still feels a little bit unreal. I’m fumbling for light switches and a not quite in a morning routine yet but that will come. I’ve taken tons of before/after pictures that I’ll share once I get my home computer up and running. Should be in about another week. Things move slowly here in Holland, what can I say?!I promise to blog more frequently once I’m blogging from home. Stay tuned!