Monday, August 15, 2011

Bye bye DEWY!

So I've been released from care under DEWY. They've taught me all they can teach me and I am doing so well with the tools they've given me that they've trusted me with my own care. Kind of scary.

I'm not exactly sure what I was extecting to happen when I actually reached out and sought help. I guess I was expecting it to take a hell of a lot longer and I was planning on being a lot more depressed, upset and really, just unable. But it didn't work out that way at all. I kind of... you know... did it.

So that's really all I'm doing. I'm just following the plan, albeit not perfectly, I am following it. I guess all along I wasn't striving for perfection but I do need to keep track that I am at least hitting my 80% mark most times.

I do not exercise. At all. I haven't since I got back from vacation. This has to change for a plethora of reasons but the main one being it makes me feel fabulous when I do it. It makes everything else fall into place. It makes a serious difference in my life. I still haven't given up on the idea of swimming. Dewy even suggested that if I can just do it once a week that's better than nothing and seriously, of course I can do it once a week!

I'm still on the path to get back to where I was pre-vacation and that's taking a lot longer than I expected. I try not to let it get to me but hey, I'm human, it does get to me. I want to be right back to where I was, easy peasy, but it's not working out that way. Well, that's a bit childish to say it that way. It's not that "it's" not working out that way, more like I'm not working out that way. I just need to regain that focus I had.

So that's my concentration this week, just to focus. Timing, portions, water, fish and some freaking exercise for Pete's sake!

I hope you're all having healthy, successful weeks.