Monday, May 25, 2009


"Success means having the courage, the determination, and the will to become the person you believe you were meant to be” - George Sheehan

I read that quote on a friend's facebook page and was totally inspired. It really seemed to hit home with me because this week I am doing something that I've wanted to do for such a long time but just never had the guts to do it.

I am sending one of my stories (a children's book I wrote) to a publisher to see if they will accept my manuscript and allow me to actually BE a writer! Now I haven't been accepted (yet!), in fact, it's not even in the post, but just the actual act of getting the query letter done, doing a final 'once-over' on the story and printing everything on paper... that's just made my entire week... and it's only Monday!

So thank you George Sheehan for summing up my actions this week... I believe I am meant to be a writer in some way, shape or form and this week I am determined to at least TRY and be successful at it. I am throwing my whole "if you don't ever try then you don't really fail" theory out the window. I'm trying!

I hope you all are having inspired, healthy, successful weeks!

Friday, May 15, 2009

I did weigh in on Tuesday and I had every intention of posting about it but I really haven't had the time (sorry Keith, I owe you an email!). I was down a kilo but then I stepped on it again two days later and was back to where I was the week before. Who freaking knows.

I'm still feeling pretty blah. I still have little to no energy for anything. Most days I can barely drag myself from bed to go to I mean work. The baby is still up 4 times a night every night and seriously, if we don't Ferberize her soon Mommy is going to pull all of those nice new hairs she has growing in right out of her head... and then some.

I get so sick of sounding like a broken record on here. Lost 1, gained 1, didn't sleep, can't sleep, baby didn't sleep, lost 1 gained 1, lather, rinse, repeat. There has to be more to life than just sleeping and eating or not sleeping and trying not to eat. I just need a balance and a weeks worth of good night rests.

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

Didn't happen

So the whole "cutting sugar for a mere two weeks" didn't happen. At.all. The very first morning I went to work knowing I could eat the Greek yogurt, apple and banana that would be there waiting for me. We always have fresh fruit available to us on the snack tables (yeah, we have snack tables at work that are stocked daily) and I had just bought some yogurt on Friday and left half of the container there. I didn't eat breakfast at home, obviously, so I was hungry by time I got to work. Well the snack table was out of apples...and bananas. Oh well, I would just eat my yogurt plain...only I got to the fridge and my yogurt was frozen solid and somebody had knocked the lid off so it was all gross inside. So no breakfast for me led to eating a snack bar later. Then at lunch I forgot that I wasn't eating sugar and had a half a sandwich with Nutella. I remembered later in the afternoon and laughed at my efforts so far. You definitely need a better plan than on Sunday night saying "I'm going to cut out sugar" and not make any preparations for the days ahead. Then as my day got busier and the next day came and went I forgot about my goal all together.

I did weigh in this morning to see 124.2 on the scale (kilos). I've been hovering between 122 and 124 for, well what seems like forever now. I know it's been months. I'm actually sick of talking about it to be honest.

Then Marco actually gave me the "are you trying to lose weight" question a few weeks back, which of course sent me into a crying, hurt feelings, my husband hates me, fit. We talked it out though and he's going to try and be more supportive (not suggest McDonald's for lunch) and I'm going to try to be less nonchalant about the issue at hand. It was actually a really good talk.

We're coming "home" in September and I really want to be able to buy some decent clothes in a much smaller size instead of buying big clothes again while I'm waiting for the weight to magically drop off my ass.

So there you go. We'll see what this week will bring. I'll just keep on keeping on until I get back into my groove.