Tuesday, June 02, 2009

DONE!

It's in the mail. I actually did it. I mailed my manuscript today. Now it's just a waiting game.

I did not step on the scale this morning for reasons beyond me but I have a feeling I know the results. I either gained or stayed the same. This is what happens when you don't change anything, things stay the same.

I keep telling myself "you have to do this" but with every day that goes by I keep "not doing this"... whatever "this" is. The fact of the matter is, I don't HAVE to do anything. I want to do it. I should do it. But really I don't HAVE to do anything.

So, that's where I am...kind of in no man's land. I'm surely not motivated but if I wait for motivation to come I'll be a hefty 300 pounds again in no time at all. I just need to buck up, quit my bitching, stop the excuses and regain control again.

We'll see if it happens. I don't have much faith.

2 comments:

Kirsten said...

Maybe you could set another reward for yourself - a pedicure?

Teri said...

good luck with your book, Sarah! I can't wait to hear more updates about this! And get out there, girl! You've been an inspiration to so many (including me) to get up and move!