Thursday, November 15, 2007

Ik ben zwanger!!! (Dutch for...)

Translated: I AM PREGNANT!!!!!

We found out this morning that our first round of inseminations worked and I am now 4 weeks and 4 days along! We are absolutely ELATED. Just thrilled. So happy. Over the moon. Doing cartwheels! Overjoyed. Flabbergasted! There's not even a word to describe how freaking McHappy we are! Baby .02 will be arriving sometime around July 24th 2008!

I woke up bright and early with a nice full bladder this morning and took a "line" test where if two lines show up you're pregnant if only one line shows you're not. Well that line was there. It was weak as hell but it was there. I needed further convincing before doing my happy dance though. Marco had bought a digital test (actually a three pack) the night before because I just knew I wouldn't believe just one test.

I dipped it in my collected specimen (I've gotten VERY good at aiming... I don't even get my hand anymore!) and laid it on the counter covering it with paper so I couldn't sneak a peak. I came in and set the timer for three minutes. When those 3 years... oh wait... minutes... were up Marco and I met at the bathroom door, held hands and prepared for whatever it was we were about to see. On the count of three we lifted the paper.




LIFT! Oh my GOD! It says "zwanger (pregnant)". Not "niet zwanger (not pregnant)" but ZWANGER!!!!! I reacted a bit differently than I expected. I'm a bit of a weeper and expected the tears to automatically start flowing but instead I started jumping up and down screaming "YAY! YAY! YAY!" in a pitch that I'm pretty sure only bats and werewolves can hear. As I jumped I also hugged Marco and continued to yell "can you believe it? can you believe it?". He was too busy grinning from ear to ear to really answer. It was the most exciting moment we've had in a very very long time. The screeching of yay continued for a while longer before the tears came but of course eventually they came.

I've spent the rest of the day planning cutsie ways of telling our parents. I had a little lamb candle and pink and blue balloons sent to my mom at work and called her right after to talk to her. We bawled. I told you... we're weepers in my family. She is in charge of telling my dad, who will also be thrilled for us.

We bought Marco's parent a build-a-bear gift card and attached it to pink and blue helium balloons and took it over when we had dinner with them tonight. The card said something along the lines of "here is a gift card to make me a stuffed animal to snuggle with when I arrive in July 2008" or something like that. His mom just kept saying "echt? echt? echt?" (really, really, really). She even jumped up and down a little even though she has bad legs which was totally cute. It was a wonderful moment to share with them. I am so glad we got to tell at least one set of parents face to face.

Since telling our parents we've shared the news with all of our friends and family and now I'm sharing it with you all as well. You all have been so sweet and supportive every time I have posted about our fertility problems and I really appreciate it more than you will ever truly understand.

I'm feeling absolutely perfect right now. No "symptoms" to speak of with the exception of some sore breasts that seem to be the slightest big larger already. WOOHOO! I always wanted big boobs! I hope to continue this "feel great" path on through the rest of the time but won't be surprised if it's not all smooth sailing. I'm ready for it. Dare I say "bring it on?" Nah.. I won't tempt the pregnancy gods.

So what happens to my blog now? I'm obviously not going to try to lose weight anymore by "dieting" but I am going to try to lead the healthiest lifestyle possible to ensure I don't gain unnecessary weight. Actually all along I haven't really been "dieting" I've just been eating healthier. Pregnancy isn't a reason to get lazy or slip back into my old habits of comfort food, elation eating, boredom eating etc. A pregnant woman only needs an extra 500 calories per day so there's really no "eating for two". I'm willing to take any suggestions that you ladies (and men) who have been through this have for me. I'm going to try mostly to just roll with the punches and do what I can when I can.

So that's that! I'm going to be a mommy! Marco's going to be a daddy! We're going to be parents!!! YAY!!!!!!!!

(And before anybody warns me that it's a bit early to be blurting it out on my blog please first know... We have been through infertility hell for the past 2.5 year (36 cycles). We have had disappointment after disappointment after disappointment. We have had scare after scare after scare. I want this one moment to be worry free and to be absolutely elated... so please... I know the risks...I know what "could" happen... I think everybody does... I just ask that you please don't make it your duty to warn me (or any pg woman for that matter) that I may miscarry. I just want to be happy for a while. And I think I deserve it. Should something go wrong I would need your support more than ever so it's all the better I share this news. My life has been an open book to my readers and I don't want that to stop here. Thank you so much for understanding.*stepping off of soap box*)


J Marie said...

Congratulations! I'm so happy for you and Marco. I wish you nothing but the best!

Chubby Chick said...

Holy ZWANGER!!! Congratulations!!! I am SO happy for you! I can only imagine how excited and happy you and your hubby are!

And I LOVE the way you broke the wonderful news to the grandparents! How cute!!!

Here's to a wonderful pregnancy!

kimberly said...

Congratulations!!! I am so excited to you. Best of luck now and through the next 9 months and next 18 years!

serenity said...

WOO HOO!!! Like I told you on the MSN board this morning, I KNEW IT! Your chart was looking WAY too good for it to be any other answer.

I am so thrilled for you and Marco. The way you told them, too - was so freaking awesome. :)

And personally? I think you should GET THE SHOES! 36 cycles of TTC - you more than deserve them!!!

A couple of words of caution, though, about the weight stuff, if I may?

For AT LEAST the next 6-8 weeks, you're going to be completely at the mercy of your body. LISTEN TO IT. Don't think about the scale. Eat when you're hungry; eat the foods that sound good to you. I ate a lot of small meals during my day - veggies and yogurt and fruits, etc. I had to eat often, though - otherwise I'd feel ill.

Thing about pregnancy is: you will gain weight. And it might be a lot. You'll have a time, a good number of weeks, where you'll just feel gross and fat - not pregnant. And it'll be normal.

I have SO much respect for how you've changed your relationship with food; and I know personally how hard it is for me to see the weight gain. Keep up the good healthy habits, and you'll be fine.

You're going to be a mommy!!!

Dee said...

That's just fantastic! I'm so happy for you and Marco. And the way you told your parents is so so sweet!!

Best of luck to both of you. hugz.

Lauren said...

Congratulations Mom!

Twix said...

YAY! YAY!! YAY!!! I am so happy for you both! This is awesome news!!!! CONGRATULATIONS!! :D

Leslie said...

Wow - you brought tears to my eyes!! Congratulations. I remember the thrill of seeing that line...thinking we may never see it. Enjoy this thrilling feeling... and hopefully you wont get morning sickness too bad...although I was THRILLED to bits to feel sick :) haha I would have happily thrown up every day for those 10 months if it meant a healthy baby at the end :)

Sara said...

I have been a lurker on your blog for awhile now and I know how hard these years have been for you. I'm soo happy for you, after all you and your hubby has been through you deserve this!!! Cherish every moment!

(bills)clare said...

best. news. ever. (well, okay, related to people i don't really know...)

i'm totally doing my happy dance.

Anonymous said...

Another lurker, but regular reader here! Congratulations! After following your story you had me crying at work for you guys (my family are cryers too!) Best of luck and good wishes!

I'll echo what the one poster said - your body is goign to dictate what you can & can't eat for the next few months. Try not to worry if you're not getting all the recommended food groups. You'll get there eventually!

The Tune's said...

Congrats to you and Marco! Wishing you a healthy 9 months!

GeorgieGirl said...

Congratulations! Wow! I'm thrilled for you! Best wishes!

Anonymous said...

Another Lurker... I have been reading your blog for a long time (year plus?). I am a fellow nestie.

I just wanted to say CONGRATULATIONS!!!!! I am so happy for you & Marco!


Erin said...


You and Marco so deserve this:)

Congratulations and Happy and Healthy 9 months to you!!!

Anonymous said...

awesome news!!! i've been a lurker for a year now and am SO EXCITED for you!!!
here's to hoping your pregnancy will be wonderful :)

my advice - plan your meals. i never wanted to eat anything, at all, especially at the beginning when i could sleep all day (except for that work thing), so having a meal plan set up in advance was great!

Riley & Tiki said...


iCANdothis said...

yay! congrats!

Livy said...

OMG... I can't quite believe it. I rubbed my eyes and did the refresher button a few times to check it was really true. Congratulations is an understatement. Right at this very moment, a human being is growing in your womb. A human being who is so loved by so many. I am so estatically happy that you will soon be able to breathe in that newborn baby smell, and experience parenthood with Marco. You deserve it.

Sonya said...


I am soooooooooo happy for you!!!!


MommytoA said...

Yay Sarah!I just saw some pages for you & was being nosy.I had to hunt your post down since I didn't see it.This is so great!

Anonymous said...

When your mother-in-law kept saying "echt, echt, echt". Are you sure she wasn't just choking on some stampot?

Teale said...

That's such fantastic news! I also love how catchy the word "zwanger" is!

Amanda said...


I just found your blog through Weight Loss Tips website. I am an Australian living in Holland also, in Noord Brabant. I have been here for 6 years and am married to a Dutch man. I will add your blog to my links so I can continue reading... you have done so well with your weight loss. Groetjes, Amanda. :)

Monica (from the nest) said...

Yay! Congratulations! I am so happy for you.

Anonymous said...

Sarah I am offline a lot due to wrist uinjury so just caught up with your blog, I am overjoyed at your pregnancy, you wanted this SO badly - congratulations!! You'll be awesome parents!