Wednesday, July 09, 2008
I'm still here...and still pregnant.
Oh yes, I am still here and still very pregnant. Not that I should expect NOT to be still pregnant since I'm not due until the 21st but it would be totally 100% okay with me not to be pregnant anymore and to be holding little Sadie in my arms.
I've been having a bit of a rougher time than usual lately. I am very uncomfortable (I'll post a 38 week 1 day pic below and you'll see why). I can't stand for long periods or even long enough to finish the dishes because my hot-itchy-swollen feet won't allow it. I can't massage them myself because I can't reach them without totally winding myself.
I can't sleep at night. I just can't. It's an impossible task. Prep for baby care, probably.
I am having heartburn like crazy but thank God for Zantac.
I can't sit on the couch because it's too low and squishes up my belly when I sit there making me unable to breath. I've read that oxygen is kind of necessary.
I can't tie my own shoes... again it totally winds me.
I can't walk the dog very far because of aforementioned winding.
Getting up from the bed winds me. For all this winding I could fly a fleet of kites.
Sadie's little kicks are no longer cute little awwwww kicks. They are cowabunga-drop-kicks to various body parts including the crotch and ribs at the same time. The crotch kicks make me feel like I have to pee so each time I get up and pee... well I get up and sit on the toilet and drip.
Not only that, after struggling with infertility for 2.5 years before finally getting our wish to become parents I feel so extremely guilty for not being super miss perky pregnant woman. I know tons of women who would die to be feeling all of the things I am feeling right now but you know what, that doesn't mean it is all fun! Yes, I wanted this baby more than anything in the world and my God I would't give up this time for the life of me, but holy hell I'm ready to be done being pregnant and moving on to the next phase! Bring on the 2am feedings, sleepless nights, colic...whatever you want to throw at me. I'm ready!
Oh and here's my 38 week and 1 day picture. Weebles, they wobble but they don't fall down!
Posted by Anonymous at 10:45 PM